Hello Grief
I refuse to accept when people say I’m strong. This has to be the hardest thing to hear. Because deep down, matter of fact over this vulnerable layer of my remaining sanity. I know I have lost my mind and I’m never been this weak in my life. It is not strength that I possess but a fear of feeling my feelings because I know they’ll kill me. I know this because the last time I cried I almost lost my breath. And that was in October 2024 and the last time that happened was October 2023. The heck is with this month.
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Friday Feb 21, 2025
Friday Feb 21, 2025
I've heard that these are the stages of grief.
1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Acceptance
Noone told me that you don't necessarily go through it in the exact order. Atleast not according to my experience.
I've experienced all of them except for "Denial", I'm worried about when that stage will kick in into my life. And what will that denial deny me from the process I've made thus far
Monday Feb 17, 2025
Monday Feb 17, 2025
Forgetting is both a gift and a curse.
My mind is in a fragile state of being reminded of everything. The good, the worse and the inbetween.
Good part of it all is that I've noticed that I'm more open to learning and leaning towards the evolution.
I'm now worried that one of these nights I'll fall asleep and wake up to not even remember that I forgot.
And I'll go on untill I'm 40 and another loss tragic triggers my grief again.
Monday Dec 02, 2024
Monday Dec 02, 2024
Do you remember the time grief come busting into your door. Picked a comfortable sport in your heart and you both lived happily ever fucked by the inevitable reality that whatever you thought couldn't get any worse actually did.
No hu...
Well good for you.